Music is the heart of the soul! It truly reflects our emotions and can speak for us when we can’t find the words to portray how we are feeling. We can tag a memory to a specific song, we listen to upbeat, party music when we want to get pumped up, or depressing, slow music when we are feeling down. It influences our emotions and can also help us with our healing process. When I am having a high anxiety day, moment, or know I will be encountering one of my triggers, I always listen to my music. It completely calms me down, distracts me from what is causing the anxiety, and gets me through the trigger. For example, one of my triggers is showers. I literally could not shower without having a panic attack until I started playing music in the shower with me and forced myself to sing along to the songs. It forced my brain to think of something else, quickly get through my shower, and get out of there before I had any time to trigger a panic attack. Now, I am able to take showers with hardly any anxiety and sometimes without my music playing! I’m very excited about this progress!
Archives for November 2018
My life was forever changed when I met my now ex-boyfriend. He took things from me and controlled me for eight months of my life, causing friendships and relationships with family members to become strained and almost damaged forever. I am forever grateful to God for saving me from my narcissistic boyfriend who ended up being a master manipulator.
For my safety and discretion, I am going to be changing names, and some other minor details of my story. This relationship lasted for eight months.
Hi everyone! My name is Stacey Kimball. I’m a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and I am a victim of sexual assault. For my safety, Stacey Kimball is not my real name. I was in a terrible, manipulative relationship for 8 months this past year that was full of emotional abuse, and ended in sexual assault. My ex-boyfriend does not know that I am claiming sexual assault and I am not pressing charges. I have not talked to him ever since we broke up, and therefore want to remain anonymous to remain safe from him in case he ends up finding this blog. My purpose for making this blog is not to shame him, but to be a voice out there for the other women in the church (and outside of the church!) to feel that they are not alone in this world. Unfortunately, sexual assault happens to members of the church, and I want to be a voice out there for those girls who feel alone, ashamed, used, unsure of how to cope, or however else they might be dealing with this trauma. You are NOT alone. To read about my experience here is the link to My Story.