You Still Have Worth: Surviving the Fight
When All Hope Seems Lost
Bad days can hit you out of nowhere. Sometimes, I can actually predict if a bad day will probably happen if I know I’ve pushed myself or had to talk a lot about my story the day before. Either way, when everything all started, I had no idea what I was up against. I had no idea if what I was feeling was what everyone else was feeling, or if this was how it was going to be for the rest of my life. Here are some things that I experience when I tend to have what I call, a bad day.
Music is the heart of the soul! It truly reflects our emotions and can speak for us when we can’t find the words to portray how we are feeling. We can tag a memory to a specific song, we listen to upbeat, party music when we want to get pumped up, or depressing, slow music when we are feeling down. It influences our emotions and can also help us with our healing process. When I am having a high anxiety day, moment, or know I will be encountering one of my triggers, I always listen to my music. It completely calms me down, distracts me from what is causing the anxiety, and gets me through the trigger. For example, one of my triggers is showers. I literally could not shower without having a panic attack until I started playing music in the shower with me and forced myself to sing along to the songs. It forced my brain to think of something else, quickly get through my shower, and get out of there before I had any time to trigger a panic attack. Now, I am able to take showers with hardly any anxiety and sometimes without my music playing! I’m very excited about this progress!